When you come back down after your buzz has worn off, you have got a lot of different options that you can choose from. On the one hand, you can simply use some more, and forget that this whole “reality” chimera even exists in the first place. On another hand, you can regret what you just did, and work to get yourself back together in the real world. Or on the mystical third hand, you can simply deny that the entire thing even happened in the first place. There is a reason why there are a whole lot more slip chips out there than there are one year tokens. But is relapsing even worth it in the first place?
You already know that you can not just spend your entire life being drunk or high. You have probably given that the old college try (which is the most appropriate possible term in this context). It never works, and it usually ends up beating the living crap out of anything and everything worth having in your life. No matter how hard you try to work with it and conceal it from other people, sooner or later your addiction is going to shine (which is not the right word) through the cracks which are inevitably going to appear.
So when you go back to the old way for a little while, you have got to climb back into cleanliness and sobriety, and admit to yourself that something got messed up in a big way. You also have to admit that you did it all to yourself, even if you would like to defer the blame to someone or something else. So is it really worth it, to go through the physical withdrawal pains after teasing yourself? Is it really worth having to get back into your meetings, and turn in what you had for your slip chip?